are you aware the shape I am in?
my hands they shake
my head it spins
i am exhausted from trying to be stronger than i feel
trying to stand tall, yet i can only kneel
it hurts, but i am okay
“i am used to it”, i say.
but i haven’t felt alright for a really long time
surrounded by those whom show love and care
yet loneliness is felt almost everywhere
i know the signs and i have a plan
but the longer it takes to feel “right”
the more i am not sure that i can
because behind my smile is a hurting heart
even though i laugh i am falling apart
if you look closely at me
i guarantee you will see
the person i show you is not really me.